These itchy fingers decided to reach fer that orange book and open it up last night. The first entry dated 13th April 2007. The very day Lan got enlisted into Bedok Camp. When i was still a freelancer in Camelot back then and when i was putting up at mama`s. When slamming and throwing handphones was our favourite which eventually became a norm. When "all i could do is cry, every day of my life".

As the book flipped its page one after another, i could still feel this heart burning and crying though i know this chapter had long ago ended. But of course it was just that emotional side of me having reminisced past events. It was that roller coaster Lan and I rode on our entire journey. It was that shit we chose to bring upon ourselves.

Gee, how time passed us by. Two years down the road, i managed to still see him in that green uniform doing his very last parade. Only thing, he was doing it for the nation, not the school where i could sit at the canteen and watch him commanding till he finishes. Those were the times i miss so much.

Heh, the thrills in life.